Eleventh Sunday in Ordinary Time

Readings

2 Sam 12:7-10, 13
Gal 2:16, 19-21
Lk 7:36-8:3

Reflection

Upon reflecting on the readings, what stood out to me was the theme of forgiveness. It is evident in the first reading, 2 SM 12:7-10, 13, in the line, “The Lord on His part has forgiven your sin: you shall not die”, and the Psalm 32: 1-2, 5, 7, 11, “Lord, forgive the wrong I have done.” Forgiveness is something that is vital to living a life like Jesus did and is something that I constantly struggle with. When I have forgiven someone, I feel like I am in a deep, dark whole and the act of forgiving is the hand of God that is pulling me to the light. There are many times in my life where it would take me a long time to forgive someone. The major example of this that I can think of is when a doctor made two mistakes during my mother’s routine surgery, which put her in the hospital with a 108-degree fever and a subsequent ICU stay for ten weeks. Even though I know the doctor didn’t intentionally cause such pain, I held such anger towards him for almost taking my mother away from me and for all the suffering she went through. At a time, as a young child, I held anger towards God as well, thinking that He was punishing my mom, who did nothing wrong and is the best person I know. However, that anger consumed me with anxiety, resentment, and animosity that took over my life. I realized that I did not want to live that way and after I forgave the doctor, and thanked God for still giving me my mom, it was a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I felt love, compassion, and had complete trust in God that He would take care of my mother and my family. I truly felt like I was led out of the darkness. By forgiving others and putting all trust in God, I was finally able to go in peace, which is talked about in this week’s gospel (LK 7:36-8:3).

-Emma von Tscharner '17